Happiness and Liberation is Depressing

Because I have such a insatiable craving for life, intensity, and experiences, I've ended up doing incredible things. My "job" of giving people an adventure that they will remember for the rest of their life as a tandem paragliding instructor is amazing. Understanding that I was able to bootstrap myself to this point from $8 in my bank account and a significantly larger amount of credit card debt is empowering.  I feel more free and liberated now than I ever have. At the same time, it's this unrealistic desire to be living a constant state of this beautiful glow that makes me depressed because it's not possible.

Last night, I dreamt that it was raining. In the morning, I woke up to a Facebook post informing me that it's the last day of summer. This person welcomes the changing of the colors, but I felt disappointed. It's another reminder that I won't be able to hurl myself off a cliff and into a heightened state of esctacy and flow as much as I'd like to. I then rolled out of bed, opened the blinds, and noticed the most depressing thing I've seen in a long time. I saw layers of clouds that I hadn't seen since the last time it rained. Towards the end of an hour long business call, something even more depressing happened - rain. 

I will never consciously pull someone down in order to make myself feel better. I try to surround myself with people that are better than myself and then help others come up to my level. That's why I rarely express myself when I have a cloud over my head. Some people think I'm this unending beam of light and positivity. The reality of the situation is that I'm just like everyone else.

Like everyone else, I'm always craving more excitement, more money, more amazing experiences, however I'm slowly learning to be happy in the now. It's easy to get sucked into the trap that more equals happiness.

Jason Silva explains our malady beautifully.